I have always wanted to...

Randomness...'

Being able to express my thoughts on a written paper always interested me, I think about it, run it through, know exactly what am I going to write down at that paper that is looking straight at me challenging my every determination of achieving what I had on mind.

It never happens, everything changes once I rethink words and undo thoughts and phrases, surprisingly, fresh ideas start coming up, past thoughts evolve into something fresher, brighter, and much more intuitive. I have repeatedly on several occasions tried on starting out a blog, put actual thoughts into action, rather than just letting them fly away into thin the wind circulating my head on a beautiful sunny/shady day.

Spent most of my days till this very point on my feet, walking for miles, addressing each reflection my eye catches, wondering about alternatives, creating chains and cycles, proving to my self, I am a thinker, I'm not similar to the other sheep's living around me, caring about fashion, clubbing, drinking, etc... However is that true? Is being different in that sense actually different? Is it the thoughts or the actions that make one different from the rest of the people?

People my age often take a year prior or post their university to find themselves, searching, yearning, digging deep well at least that's what they say! Since I haven't had the luxury of choosing, I kind of did that while I was getting my undergrad education. Actually that was much more fruitful, were you actually get to experience your true self, what you really want to do, where do you want to live... Don't you think that is true? Well if life has taught me anything, then it's everyone, I mean every single one of us is different, people could be similar in a lot of things that they group to do, dance together, socialize, eat, sing, dance, spiritualize, but at the end of the day, everyone is so different, everyone has this button of their own, that could turn day into night, joy to depression, productive to being a failure. I try every day to accept each person as he is, learn from other people if there's anything worth learning, and kick out of the door if he's being a pain in the ass.

Well that is it for now. Will be back soon..